How (Not) To Disappear Completely ~ My Thoughts · by J Oliver

How to disappear completely? How to disappear completely of that time, that place, that moment, that thought, forget disintegrate than release.

I’m trying to decide. I always second guess the choice I make, it’s tough, uncomfortable, nauseating and exhausting, f*ck why me, why me…. Alright I’ll have the vanilla caramel swirl…wait no instead I’ll have the… no I’ll just stick with the vanilla caramel swirl. Taste is so f*cking transient, I’m surprised there aren’t more health nuts. One thing I cannot wrap my head around is this obesity epidemic, I think it’s more of a flavour thing. If salad tasted like chicken wings it would solve everything. Taste is the key it’s such a fleeting moment, an instant memory. It melts away into nothing, and for what…for what!

I recently woke myself up due to an uncomfortable conversation I had. It began with the question, “ So what do you do for a living?” and finished with an, “ I seeeeeee…” Miserable tidings of an information exchange, it’s exhausting even in your sleep. Waking up I realized I didn’t want to do that anymore…talk to people. I’ve had it!

Then I realized, misanthropes are the people misanthropes do not want to meet. Give it a chance I say, give yourself and others a chance to be lyrical with one another.

We were so naïve, (really I was) the way we worked, lived life, wasting time, melting away what should have been so beautiful. We cannot begin to grasp the potential the opportunity that is presented before us. This sounds crazy or a bit like a self-help/empowerment seminar but we could do so much more with this, with everything that has been accomplished.

Everything you know of, more can be done. We haven’t even touched infancy, and almost killed the planet…global warming may kill us all; due to our own mistakes? I’m not talking about economic growth, it doesn’t matter, its not going to help, if anything, it brings us down. You can do more, you can live better, be more efficient, learn, expand your mind, take it all in, open up and use every culture, situation, and person to help shape what you can become, what we all can. But it must be done together.

The no appointment policy is equivalent to the no rational explanation for the subject of this sentence. However, one of the things I do know is that we are subject to everything, and anything we do or do not do. No matter how vague the last two sentences were everything we do never goes unnoticed. The strangest thing of it all is that I was one of the absent-minded f*cks, that used to just stare into space and let life happen, not that it was much of a life. I realize now, you have to take action and be present in every situation. If you do this you will get results, or worst case scenario, you will find what you’re looking for. All it takes is one individuals’ action or reaction to positively influence the atmosphere of life and benefit human evolution on a whole. Smell the flowers and for f*ck sakes share what you know (you may be the next Gandhi or be teaching the next Einstein).